My History!

Alright, as my first post, I thought it would be good to know some background. I'm a 21-year-old mother of two! I was 17 when i got pregnant with my oldest son, Hudson Michael. I got married the following October when I turned 18, then May of that year ('06) I had Hudson! Before my husband and I's first Anniversary, we seperated. he had several affairs and if you ask anyone who knew him at that time in his life, he has some major symptoms of Bipolar disorder, and we just couldn't deal with eachother anymore. In my state, you have to be seperated for a year before you can get a divorice finalized. So for that one year, I got a job, moved back in with my mom and dad, and became the sole care-taker for my beautiful son. I will be the first to admit i was not the best mom... ok, I was pretty sucky at it! I was more concerned with my friends, and my job, and my social life, than i was with my son, but non-the-less, I was his sole-caretaker. A year after we seperated, when my divorice was supposed to finalize, I started dating a guy named Ryan. At first, we'll both tell you that we just dated eachother so that neither one of us were lonely, BUT, it's turned into the best relationship I've ever had!
Hudson didn't really know what a dad was until Ryan came into his life. Ryan inspired me to be the best mom i could be. I remember thinking.. " If this guy can be such an amazing father, to a boy who isn't even his, than surely, I can get my act together and be a better mom for a child who I carried for nine months and I went through 13 hours of labor with, and actually is biologically mine".. So thats what i did, i became the best mom I could be!
After only two months of dating, Ryan and I found out I was pregnant again! This time we decided not to get married right away. We moved in together, and used the next 9 months to really fall in love! It wasn't easy to stay together, neither one of us were very pleasant when I was pregnant, but we did it, and in retrospect it was the best thing we did. I also quit my job to be a stay-at-home mom. We had our baby in August of '08, Andersyn, or Andee.
That pretty much brings you up to speed. My life is chaotic, to say the least, with my two children. I find myslef talking to everyone like they are 2 years old, and don't understand a word I'm saying. And when I get a chance to talk to an adult, I have a hard time coming up with conversation pieces that don't start with, "Oh my gosh, Hudson/ Andee did the cutest thing the other day" But I'm learning to balance being a mom, daughter, girlfriend, and friend. And yes through it all, I can come up with some pretty interesting stories! So... I hope you enjoy!